egregious backdating for completionism's sake
Jun. 20th, 2025 11:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I went "HOLD ON I HAVEN'T POSTED--" at 00:01 last night, when I had already been in bed but failing to sleep for about twenty minutes, and so I will tell you that part of the reason that I did not manage to actually post, actually yesterday, is that my reward for having finally e-mailed the headache clinic and said "so yeah I took my loading doses in mid-April, sorry I didn't manage to e-mail at the time, executive dysfunction has been eating my entire brain"...
... was of course a response like "well ideally your follow-up appointment would have been last week but, okay, fine, how about Monday? :|"
"... oh and by the way you know those questionnaires we want you to submit a minimum of a week in advance? yeah if you could get those done too--"
-- which: ENTIRE brain.
(I managed to confirm the Monday appointment. I did not manage to get the headache diary and questionnaires done.)
I Flirt With Everyone.
Jun. 21st, 2025 05:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This post talks about the normal route at first, then goes on to discuss the Snowgrave route. I'll mark when the Snowgrave spoilers are coming up, so you can duck out if you're trying to avoid those!
I'm so invested in Deltarune. What a game. Undertale was mostly just a fun diversion for me, but Deltarune is a game I'm absolutely passionate about. I look forward to future chapters with both anticipation and fear.
The fear is at least in part that I won't be able to beat the bosses. There were a couple in chapter four that I really struggled with!
oof but I am having difficulty getting back into routines post-event
Jun. 19th, 2025 11:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I have managed all of my physio once and only once this week. I have not yet got on the mat at all. I have been spending a lot of time asleep, which probably shouldn't surprise me, and a fair amount migrainey, which does (unpleasantly). Have this evening at least managed to send the email to the headache clinic that's been due since April, and consequently may or may not actually get an appointment in time to get a prescription in time to not need to reload the f2f galcanezumab again.
(Have also been really struggling with actually opening notebook since the last trip up north, which is helping precisely nothing. Maybe acknowledging that here will make it a little less scary to go back to, at least.)
Shining Only In Your Own Eyes, The Light Defies It.
Jun. 19th, 2025 10:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I've just defeated Jackenstein, but this entry only discusses the pre-Dark-World section of Deltarune chapter four.
Thank you guys for avoiding spoilers in your comments on my last entry! Please try not to allude to anything post-Jackenstein in any comments on this one. Hopefully I'll be finished and able to discuss things freely with you soon!
I'm already missing this game in anticipation of finishing it. But, hey, there should be new chapters to look forward to in the future! At... some point!
Does Anyone Know What An E-Mail Is?
Jun. 18th, 2025 11:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
For the benefit of anyone who's trying to avoid spoilers, this entry has two different cuts. The first cut contains my thoughts from revisiting the first two chapters (mainly disjointed speculation, including speculation on the Snowgrave route), with no spoilers for the new material, and the second cut contains my thoughts on chapter three.
And now on to chapter three!
One of the most striking things about Deltarune, like Undertale before it, is how dense this game is with fun little details. It takes every opportunity to slip in a secret or a joke. You're constantly rewarded for poking around, for trying new things, for taking a second look. It's an approach that makes the world such a pleasure to explore.
I'm looking forward to playing chapter four; please try not to give anything away in the comments!
today I have mostly been asleep
Jun. 17th, 2025 11:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
The watch tells me I achieved +102 "body battery" points, which I am amused to see.
But I have also visited the allotment (on my way back from physio) and have eaten: raspberries, a strawberry, a cherry, redcurrants, jostaberries, peas, broad beans, kohlrabi. V pleased.
Fanfiction: Kindred Spirits (The Hundred Line/Horizon Zero Dawn, Yugamu/Nil)
Jun. 17th, 2025 04:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Title: Kindred Spirits
Fandom: The Hundred Line: Last Defense Academy/Horizon Zero Dawn
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Yugamu/Nil
Wordcount: 1,200
Summary: Yugamu and Nil meet and murderflirt. Look, someone had to write this.
IPQ 2025 PDPHs
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Due date: June 20th, 10pm EDT
Work Minimums: 2k fic or finished artwork
PH 47 - Hazbin Hotel (Cartoon), Hazbin Hotel (Cartoon), Hazbin Hotel (Cartoon)
Thank you for considering our pinch hits!
Possible Candidate For My All-Time Favourite Soundtrack.
Jun. 15th, 2025 11:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
In this game, I often find myself facing a powerful enemy, failing, going 'well, this is obviously impossible' and then beating them on the second try. It's pretty satisfying!
I've started prioritising Agility to a ludicrous extent. Pouring all of my points into it, neglecting all of my other stats. It's just so useful!
two^W some good things
Jun. 14th, 2025 11:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Item the first: I have no idea what the hell made the ominous donk-slither-donk noise in the portaloo at about midnight last night, but the phone I'd convinced myself it was was in a neat little pile with my laptop, in the tent, in the morning -- after I'd spent some time being sad about inadequate backups of photos of tiny sleepy rhinos -- which was an enormous relief (though I am also very pleased with myself for how well I handled things). (Especially given that my conviction that this was what had happened was in part based on being as aware as I could be of how abruptly my cognitive function had deteriorated with Surprise Unscheduled Migraine Onset.) (Still haven't worked out what on earth the donk-slither-donk was, but it's none of the obvious Truly Upsetting things to have lost, so I'm Currently Fine With This.)
Item the second: it is hot. This field contains lots of chamomile, and also lots of people. I am really enjoying the way it smells.
Item the third: I am really enjoying the dark chocolate + salt + nuts snack bars that crew welfare is providing, which I'd not previously noticed.
Item four: THE HALBARD THAT IS A SHARK.
I'm Not Sure I'm Actually Capable Of Rendering That Many People Unconscious.
Jun. 13th, 2025 02:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I haven't really been remembering my dreams lately; I didn't note any dreams down at all for a period of over a month from early May. I wonder what makes my recollection fluctuate. Maybe I remember my dreams less if I'm sleeping at a comfortable temperature?
[fieldposting] day 0 complete
Jun. 12th, 2025 11:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I am already very very tired.
But.
In a magnificent example of Prosocial Mammals: yesterday, when we were like 3/4 of the way to site, I realised that I no longer had "migraine stabs" on my packing list because I had carefully arranged things so that stabs would be due on a Tuesday so I would never need to faff with stabs in a field again.
... which I completely forgot. Until. 3/4.
... so I put out a Wail addressed to Londoners who would be Heading To The Field, and one of them ACTUALLY WENT on the terrible multi-borough fetch quest to get me my stabs so I HAVE BEEN STABBED and was only one day late, not a week! which is probably going to make the next month much more pleasant! and I just. continue delighted about this.
There you go that's your anecdote of the day.
delight of the evening
Jun. 11th, 2025 11:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Okay. So.
Admin: the LRP has a variety of in-game resources. One of the more valuable ones is mithril, which gets used for all sorts of things, like armour and weaponry and building works, particularly military ones.
This event we are seeing the launch of The Cow Stock Market. This inevitably was a topic of discussion over this evening's pizza: discussion of the designs of the I Promise To Pay The Bearer On Demand One (1) Cow slips! speculation over Cow Futures! debate over the impact on the gold mithril standard!
It'll be fiiiiiiiiiine, says A. It'll all be TOTALLY fine. You can absolutely build fortifications out of cows!
-- and at this point, for those of you who are abruptly cackling, I need to point out that A has not read Nona the Ninth.
I also need to point out that I am in a specific groupchat, specifically set up following the event where someone managed to get their hands on some copies of Nona a few days before official release and there was consequently significant in-field bartering for who got to be next in the queue to inhale them, that is named after. well. the cows. did you know that cows have best friends.
But A had no idea why I was abruptly losing it, and I decided that rather than attempt to explain I was in fact first of all going to Depart Our Table, find my Nona dealers, and relate unto them the story of The Thing A, All Unawares, Just Said.
The reaction was extremely gratifying.
Post-Deadline Pinch Hits for Sakura Exchange (Due June 27)
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We have several pinch hits (unfilled requests) currently in need of creators. If you might be able to fill one of these requests by the current due date (June 27, 11:59PM UTC / 7:59PM EDT), please comment on the pinch hit post with your AO3 name and the number of the pinch hit you'd like to claim.
The minimum requirements are 1000 words for fic, or clean lineart on unlined paper for art.
Available pinch hits (click through for details):
PH 4 - 爆上戦隊ブンブンジャー | Bakuage Sentai Boonboomger (TV), 魔法つかいプリキュア! | Mahou Tsukai Pretty Cure! | Mahou Girls PreCure!, 仮面ライダーギーツ | Kamen Rider Geats, Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne | Phantom-Thief Jeanne (manga), Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne | Phantom-Thief Jeanne (Anime)
PH 5 - Grandia III (Video Game), Top o Nerae! Gunbuster, チョコボと魔法の絵本 | Chocobo to Mahou no Ehon | Final Fantasy Fables: Chocobo Tales (Video Game), 機動戦士ガンダム | Mobile Suit Gundam (TV 1979), Final Fantasy XII
PH 10 - わんだふるぷりきゅあ! | Wonderful PreCure! (Anime), Crossover Fandom, Show By Rock!! (Video Games), 美男高校地球防衛部HAPPY KISS! | Binan Koukou Chikyuu Bouei-bu Happy Kiss!, Tokyo Mew Mew Olé (Manga), Fairy蘭丸~あなたの心お助けします~ | Fairy Ranmaru: Anata no Kokoro Otasuke Shimasu (Anime)
PH 16 - 終ノ空 remake | Tsui no Sora Remake, Tsukihime (Visual Novel & Anime), Kara no Kyoukai | The Garden of Sinners
Thank you very much!
sat up very straight at around this time last night and went "... oh"
Jun. 10th, 2025 11:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Two things:
I keep (especially post-surgery, cotemporal with relearning how to walk) finding more small ways that how I've been doing my various physio exercises isn't quite right. This is a good thing! Isn't it fascinating to be learning more about embodiment and how my body works and how I can best deploy my various muscles!
Up until the hypermobility clinic, all the physio I was ever prescribed made me worse, not better.
It abruptly dawned on me, all at once, that the subtlety of the changes I'm making with adjusting how I'm shifting my weight around and so on and so forth? Are almost certainly not actually externally visible. Like, yes, people not understanding hypermobility and problems with it was also Definitely A Problem, but -- the part where I'm still, mm, not necessarily fixing things but certainly developing them, finding places where even with What The Hypermobility Clinic Told Me To Do I wasn't getting quite right... well, the hypermobility specialists clearly went "eh, good enough", and in terms of the effects on my ability to Things I think they were clearly demonstrably provable correct, but -- yeah, okay, sudden understanding of some of just how difficult it would have been to correct some of this stuff.
(I'm very sure that all my various epiphanies will turn out to be about things that still aren't quite right, that I can still refine further -- I'm having an extended phase of that with Pilates right now -- but this is a good thing, actually. It's really nice to have such clear evidence that I'm getting to know and understand myself better.)
Fanfiction: Piercing the Heart (The Hundred Line, Yugamu/Takumi)
Jun. 10th, 2025 06:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Title: Piercing the Heart
Fandom: The Hundred Line: Last Defense Academy
Rating: 14
Pairing: Yugamu/Takumi
Wordcount: 2,300
Summary: Yugamu’s face cracks open in a slow, unsettling smile. Takumi already regrets this.
vital functions is struggling with time management and up way past curfew
Jun. 8th, 2025 11:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Reading. FINISHED:
- Furiously Happy, Jenny Lawson. I can see why people like her! I have also remembered why I wound up unsubscribing from her blog. Very interesting proof of concept in re audiobooks, though.
- Prophet, Helen MacDonald and Sin Blaché. Very enjoyable reread in which many things landed differently, in service of...
- a word you've never understood,
rydra_wong. EXACTLY the post-canon follow-up I wanted but would have absolutely failed to articulate. Have already tried to lure one more person into reading the book so I can then make them go read the fic. Now I just selfishly want Even More Of It.
- Pain is really strange, Steve Haines. Reread for the purpose of making notes, this time. Sparked at least one useful thought. Following up references is a work in progress.
- How to cook... Desserts, Leiths Cookery School. Read all the way through for the purposes of EYB indexing first pass! Go me.
STARTED:
- Adventures in Stationery, James Ward. Borrowed from library on a whim for low-brain non-fiction.
Writing. First pass through indexing a cookbook on EYB!
Some Actual Notes re pain for The Book, including (and I am very proud of myself for this) actually writing down my questions alongside the bare "here's what it contained".
Watching. Murderbot S01E01. I am dubious but expecting to keep watching. If you encourage me I might say more when it is not past curfew.
Cooking. ... apparently I have not managed Much Of Note this week.
Eating. POTATOES at the ALLOTMENT courtesy of ALLOTMENT FRIENDS. Also finished my choi sum and had my first AMAZING broad beans and nibbled kohlrabi speculatively, all on Tuesday.
Today I have nibbled: a cherry; the first few redcurrants; a pod's worth of Kelvedon Wonder peas; half a tiny tomato.
Making & mending. Made some progress on A's left glove. Realised, belatedly, that I'd done the same thing with picking up stitches unevenly along the two sides of the palm. Ripped back most of the way to where I started from and Sulked. BUT HEY I've remembered the pattern and where I'd stowed all the bits for it!
Growing. See Eating for my biggest excitements. Sugar Magnolia (purple sugar-snap pea) now setting pods; my main intention with it this year (given that I planted a whole packet of seeds and have wound up with ...fewer plants than that) is just to get myself sorted with a significantly larger number of seeds for next year, but hey, maybe they'll all be super productive and I'll actually get to eat some too.
Stockings now at the plot to go onto the cherry tomorrow, hopefully.
Tomatoes planted out when tiny not doing so great (i.e. have mostly disappeared). Tomatoes planted out when larger Actually Flowering. Desperately need to stake the lot of them.
Tiny single solitary surviving oca has started to Go.
V grumpy about how poorly the squash I got started A While Ago have coped with getting put outside given that they are in biodegradable fibre pots so I'm not even disturbing their roots. Getting the rest of them in the ground AND THEN SOWING MORE very much also high on tomorrow's priority list. (And the beans, augh.)
Observing. Met a neighbour!
Thank You Very Macho.
Jun. 8th, 2025 01:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I'd seen it said that this game's script was long enough to fill sixty novels, which seemed implausible, so I investigated.
Riona: Yeah, I think that's an exaggeration, or at least they'd have to be short novels. Six million Japanese characters is apparently... maybe two point five or three million English words? It's probably more like thirty novels, if we're looking at average novel length. Five or six times the length of The Lord of the Rings.
Tem: Oh, God, we'll be here forever. We're stuck in a time loop.
Riona: I always knew this would happen.
Tem, simultaneously: We were always going to end up here.
I can't believe The Hundred Line: Last Defense Academy exists. The scale of it just does not feel like anything that would be created with commercial intent. It's a passion project; it's an Umineko, it's a Homestuck. Any sane studio would have stopped at the first route or two. But somehow here this game is, in all its sprawling, ridiculous glory.
As if the game weren't vast enough already, Kodaka has said he wants to add more routes, possibly consulting the fans on what they want to see.
I think we should all petition him to make my orgy fic canon. I think that would be right up his street.